Hula Hoop

With all the hype over Hula Hooping, I've decided I want to make one.  I've never been able to hula hoop, so hopefully making an adult one will make it easier.  I'm going to try out this guys instructions.  I hope I can hoop it up

Make your own Hula Hoop

Well my workout Saturday included 7 miles biking early, then 45 mins cardio at the gym.  Only to be called concerning baby crying and wanting to know how to fix said baby crying.  So, time to head home from gym with workout not complete.
This morning's workout was a lackluster appearance at best.  Not feeling the music or the mood to "pump it".   Homeward bound only to fill my day with movies and inertness.

Goals for the weekend were packed and well off on a mini-vacation.  Hopefully to return by morning.

Goals: 
Weight for Sept. 1...235 stinkin' pounds (still glad to be down from 280)
Exercise:  75 mins daily,  Cardio--6 days and weights--Sunday and Thursday
Food:  aiming to get away from all the junk food hunkering down in my cabinets
            Calorie target this week 1800. 

You can't out train a bad diet...I wish this would sink in.



Tomorrow will be the most awful of days...Logan will get his booster shots. Which makes for a very sad baby and mama.   Home workouts for the next couple of days.

Going Public

The other day someone congratulated me on going "public" with my attempt at weight loss. I thought, "how weird is that?" Honestly, it does seem that people struggle to go "public" with their weight loss, which I completely understand.

My weight loss attempt on the other hand, isn't private in the least, because my weight gain isn't private. I carry it with me everyday and everywhere I go. I can't hide it. It's the elephant in the room. So why wouldn't my weight loss attempt be public? BECAUSE I MIGHT FAIL!!! What??   

If I'm not trying, I'm failing.

Every day I get up and think today I'll do what I need to do to get this weight off.  I've been saying that since I was 13 years old.   If I completely gave up trying, I know exactly where I would be.

On a Lifetime TV special. Seriously.

So I sit here right now (2 p.m.) over my calorie target for the day by 400 calories thinking how I've blown it.  I know you've been there.  So instead of continuing to eat it out.  I'm headed to the gym.  I can burn that 400 in no time.

P.S.  Look what I bought at the Police Supply Store, I hated it didn't have a hand strap for easy spraying.  Hope those old people at the mall walking in the morning don't try to gank me.   Sorry for the picture.

A person sprayed in the face with Freeze Tear Gas cannot effectively attack you. It acts fast and causes the attacker to close his eyes and struggle for breath. You have incapacitated him for about 20 minutes thereby permitting you to escape or have a policeman or guard arrest him. You can spray him the second time if you have any fear of further attacks while help is coming.

Like there would be a second time, ever seen a fat girl run!!

KUDZU

There is a 15 Foot Tall Holly Berry Bush under there

If you've ever had kudzu on a fence or in your yard you understand how hard it is to maintain.  You also understand how quickly it grows back after just a couple of weeks of neglect.   About 2 weeks ago I worked really hard pulling quite a bit of it down and then spraying a really strong vine killer.  I was worn out.  Exhausted.  And while I got most of the fence clean the biggest bunch of it has grown over a very poky, gigantic, holly berry bush in my neighbor's yard.  Over the past 2 weeks I've neglected pulling  the new growth down when I did the yard.  As you can imagine it is still growing and the results of my vine killer have been quite minimal (see tiny bunch of brown leaves on left corner).

Maintaining the kudzu growth has reminded me of my weight loss journey.  And how I have neglected it these past 10 days (and many times before).  I tell myself it's no big deal to skip a day logging food.  Or I am just too tired to go to the gym.  Or it's just 1 snicker's bar and I've been so good.  I deserve a break.  RIGHT?????   WRONG !!!!!

This has how many calories in it?

So here I am feeling sorry for myself and standing back looking at the kudzu (my weight) creep in (up).   And wondering how long it will take to get rid of most of it and if I have the stamina to maintain the rest. 

I do and I will.

I'm no closer to my August goal than I was when I started August.  
But, I'm not going to feel guilty over something I can't change.  I didn't maintain my kudzu (continued weight loss) and now I have to start cutting it back again.   Maybe I can find a better way to maintain it rather than try to tackle it all at once?   I'm sure it would make my life much easier and provide me with greater success.

Updated Goals:

Weight goal for August 235 lbs
Calorie Consumption: 1700-1800
Calorie Burn:  75 minutes a day ( 1 hour 15 mins.)

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Potato Chips Sooth My Soul

Well not really.  Although, to be honest, they do provide that initial release of serotonin and dopamine for me.

There I was today looking down into the abyss of a chip bag.  Staring past its flimsy wall's lined with oil and salt, like a well with glistening sides and slivers of rock poking out.  But unlike a well with life sustaining water at the bottom I found life decaying golden yellow, salty crisps.  My love affair with chips is really a sickness.  I love to find just the right chip in a bag.  A large, unbroken one with the fry bubble.   SICK I tell you SICK.

It's been one of those days.  Where I've found a slight solace in food.  Not for long, but long enough to realize the damage I was doing.  Why I need solace has yet to be found out. 

If you find out why, let me know.






After all who can be too sad when you have this to look at:

It is better to be hated for what you are than to be loved for something you are not. ~ Andre Gide

Discount Club-Does buying in bulk lead to eating in bulk?

Today (as well as this weekend) is "free guest pass" day at Sam's Club.  We do not renew our membership anymore.  I found we weren't really saving money and quite often it would turn into a trip to purchase junk food in bulk form for me.  Why purchase one package of triple fudge brownie's when you can obviously save by purchasing four.  Then I would find myself at home wanting to replicate my own little  club "Sampling" experience at home...except en mass.  Don't get me wrong, I know they sell yummy fruits, veggies, and healthy meats, but I couldn't stop at that.  I couldn't leave without those sodium laden pounds of bacon (only 45 calories a slice, right?), seven pounds of sausage (just happens to be the brand I eat, how perfect), or the ten pound bag of tater tots (that counts as a veggie right?).  After my trip's I would come home and have my own little buffet for 2 weeks.  It wasn't worth it.  My husband ominously warned me today before I went, "Remember how much room we have in the fridge,"  he was prepared for the carnage.

Today I did leave without it, well to be honest, most of it.  My 8 year old wanted the GIANT box of brownies and I bought it.   WHY?  Because it is better, not the best, better than what I've ever done before.  It is moderation.  It is a CHANGE FOR THE BETTER.  I didn't come home and cook them, we'll save them for a special day, maybe after the first day of school next week.  I myself am proud.  Proud of my ability to be flexible and recognize change.

Positive for the Day:  I burned a gazillion calories lugging Logan and his diaper bag around, all while keeping up with my very active 8 year old who likes to hide in the columns under the merchandise.

Nicholas entertaining Logan

Weight Loss update:  As expected I saw the scale go up Thursday after getting better from the weekend.  I'm okay with it.  I understand the need to replenish fluids after that sort of illness.

Here's a funny I found:

A TRIP TO SAM'S CLUB
Yesterday I was at my local SAM'S CLUB buying a large bag of Purina dog chow for my loyal pet, Biscuit, the Wonder Dog, and was in the checkout line when the woman behind me asked if I had a dog.

What did she think I had, an elephant? So since I'm retired and have little to do, on impulse I told her that no, I didn't have a dog, I was starting the Purina Diet again. I added that I probably shouldn't, because I ended up in the hospital last time, but that I'd lost 50 pounds before I awakened in an intensive care ward with tubes coming out of most of my orifices and IVs in both arms.

I told her that it was essentially a perfect diet and that the way that it works is to load your pants pockets with Purina nuggets and simply eat one or two every time you feel hungry. The food is nutritionally complete so it works well and I was going to try it again. (I have to mention here that practically everyone in line was now enthralled with my story.)

Horrified, she asked if I ended up in intensive care because the dog food poisoned me. I told her no, I stepped off a curb to sniff an Irish Setter's butt and a car hit us both.

I thought the guy behind her was going to have a heart attack he was laughing so hard.

Sam's Club won't let me shop there anymore.

Good News and Bad News

Stomach Flu and Weight Loss

Today makes August 1st.  My goal for the month of July was to lose 10 lbs by August 1st.   I was well on my way, but honestly didn't think I would make my 10 lb goal.  In Fact, it was probably more around an 8 lb loss, which I would have been totally happy with.

Instead of finishing the month strong and working as hard as I could, I finished with a terrible stomach flu.  Saturday we rode 13 miles on the bike then came in feeling really great.  Around 2 a.m. Sunday I woke feeling overheated and really bad.  I got some water, laid on the couch, and splashed water on my face to no avail.

So here I am on Monday morning with my weigh in at

237.6 lbs

Only off by .6 lbs.  Victory???  I can't really say.  I feel awful still today and will miss another day of workout and eating right.   But I'm back on in the morning.  I'm not letting this slow me down too much.  I'm still glad to be closer to my ultimate weight loss goal even if this is how it had to happen.

My diet has consisted of toast, Gatorade, chicken noodle soup and crackers so I expect the sodium in those foods will bring my weight up for Thursday's weigh in.

New Goals For August

Here is my new goal board for the month of August.  Aiming for a 7.6 lb loss or to a weight of 230 or less.

Here's how I plan to get there:

• Calories  1700-1900 daily
• Water 12 cups a day
• Exercise 120 minutes a day
• At least 5 servings fruits or veg daily
• Recognizing real hunger

 The hardest part of it all has been not being able to kiss and love on Logan.  And seeing my poor Nicholas throw up, followed by cries of "Why is this happening to me?" 

 Here's to having a great August Weight Loss!!!!!!

If you don't feel like getting off the couch or getting out of your chair to do a 30 minute walk or workout at least stand up and march in place 5 minutes for every hour you sit.  Make a goal to drink more water.  Little steps lead to big ones.